Can’t get that feeling. Ever been there? I’m sitting here trying to capture “that” feeling but I’m having trouble even putting my finger on it. You know, that “Christmas feeling.” Actually I can put my finger on it but not sure how to get it. Oh how the past influences right now. A song, a smell, a place; all have this hold on me. I want to live where I use to during the holidays; in that place where I was just a child. It was easy then and there were many rich memories. As I grasp for this, I feel I can only capture it for such a short time and then it vanishes.
As a young girl, my mom and dad would make the Christmas holiday special. Music, special food, church services and gifts all linger in my mind and make me happy to recall. I value those memories and thus began the journey some 26 years ago on how I would establish traditions in my own home with my children. I wanted it to be so perfect, you know like “Norman Rockwell” perfect. Maybe that’s the problem. This perfect that I long for is right there, but a thousand years away at the same time.
My husband and I, along with our five children, just finished another Thanksmas (a combination of Thanksgiving and Christmas). We gather together around Thanksgiving and celebrate mostly Christmas. We exchange gifts, eat lots of food and just be together. It’s a wonderful time.
This time I was not quite ready with “perfect.” For the past 9 months we have been under a major construction project in our home. I had all the expectations that it would be done and ready to go before all my children began to arrive. I needed time to get everything perfect. Didn’t happen. You must know that this may not be an issue for some, but some of my gifting falls under the area of hospitality. I love to make a nice, warm, cozy atmosphere for all who enter. Sometimes (a lot of times) I think God puts us in situations to where we need to depend on him more.
God is teaching me that no matter the circumstances, he is still among us. God with us. I must trust him and let go of my crazy expectations of “perfect. “ Anyone? Anyone live there too? I need some support here! Let’s all just take a renewed glance at the season. Let’s remember and ponder the birth of Jesus. Let’s wait in quiet expectation and with razor sharp focus, lean in toward the Savior. Will you join me? We can get the “feeling” if we just stop and breathe in his air. “In him we live and move and have our being.” That’s what God says.
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